I am experiencing a "don't want to work out, don't care what I eat" lull.
It's Spring. For me, that means prying myself out of the depths of PTSD induced depression. I know, I write a lot about depression. I'm sorry to be so depressing. I am most inclined to write when I am feeling less than awesome. Because when I'm feeling awesome? I would rather just live it. So, that's that.
I need to be clear, I am NOT sad. In fact I feel just fine, other than being overwhelmingly tired and lacking motivation. I feel great. This last week, I finished off the term, got some wedding details sorted, ran a 5k, spent time with friends. I have been eating pretty much everything in sight. Starting with all the chocolate, pizza and Indian food (if you haven't eaten at Bollywood Theatre, you should) the world has to offer. I am out of the swing of things, and that's ok, because this is just what my body does to deal with the added stress caused by the smells, sounds and feelings of spring. In a couple of weeks I will be back to normal. Every year it becomes more and more predictable.
I get to go see my lifelong bestie, Bethany on Sunday, and for 4 days straight! On my agenda:
- Eat many baked goods (she is a pastry chef)
- Drink too much, at least once
- Take a beautiful hike
- Eat at a fancy restaurant, where I can be overly critical and overpay, but thoroughly enjoy my experience.
- Meet all of her friends
- Watch some Disney
It will be nice to get out of town and I hope to come back feeling well rested and ready to get back into summer/wedding body mode again. I am planning to Advocare cleanse starting on the 31st, any takers?
I will be making a workout schedule soon, because it's almost time for me to start training for a HALF MARATHON. It's crazy-pants, but I'm really going to try to get there. With the wedding and all of the festivities, I don't want to stress myself too much with the training. We shall see. I'm going to chat with Beth about it, because she's a veteran, maybe she can give me some pointers.
I will be cutting back on my lifting, I have been doing 3 days, but it may become just 1 day a week. I will shoot for 2. I really love what it does for my body, but heavy lifting is counteracting to long distance running. I will be doing some research and if anyone has any pointers, they should let me know!
E and I took some engagement photos, I thought I might give you some to look at. They're just roughs, so don't get too critical.